Well (Eric here) I'm sorry it has been a while since our last post.. I wanted Heather's words to stay at the top for a while..
Any way.. I'm writing this about 50% choked up.. Nothing to do with Kaitlyn's progress, but just a little thing she said before she went to bed 2nite.. As Heather was walking in the room with her, she said.. "Daddy, I a little sick...." I said "what honey?" she said again... " I a little sick".. I went over to her (up in mommy's arms) and rubbed her back. I said "What is the matter babe, why are you sick.." Her response nearly burst my heart.. "I have ookemeia" I looked to Heather and back to Kaitlyn and said "what hon?" "I have ookemeia Daddy"
WOW.. as my eyes tear up right now (it's becoming more and more rare) I don't even know what to say. Last night we looked at pics of the girls before this whole ordeal. It was almost like watching some other family on screen.. Kind of like they were characters that we knew, and knew well.. but were much to distant from our curent lives to be us.
My little baby girl is growing up in the face of adversity. She is maturing well beyond her age of 2. Yeah of course she still acts and looks in many ways like a little 2year old, I don't know how to say it, but she is just a little older. My prayer for her is that her heart, innosense, fun, childlike faith, and spunk are spared as much as possible. Of course we would trade each and all for her health, but tonight it was a little more difficult, face to face with them.
As I rubbed her back and said "You have Leukemia?" I said, Yah that's right but you are going to be alright, because you have Jesus in your heart". "Where?" Kaitlyn said, "In your heart and up in the sky".. I looked her straight in they eye and believed those words more than most that I have spoke thus far.. God has the ability to heal her in an instant and at his discression he will work with her and move in her as he sees fit.. I can't define God's goodness by her progress nor if he heals her.. but through his orchestration of our whole journey thus far I(we) do know this.. He is a GOOD God.. He works all for good and according to his plan, and that evidence helps our faith
As I can't do anything to spare my daughter, I do know she is in the best hands of anyone in the universe..
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Wus up Eric! I just wanted to let you know that i've come to this website just about every other day to check on Kait's progress. I love how you are able to capture these moments with your lens and express your love and adoration for your family in such a trying time. I also draw strength from your courage during this time. I know i haven't left a comment as of yet but after reading this blog i just sat here and couldn't pass this one by. You are truly a wonderful husband, a passionate father and definitely a great friend. I will continue to keep your family in my prayers E. Thank you for being a inspiration. May God bless you and your family. Peace
Lou
as we go on in our lives we must always remeber that we are never alone and he is there every step of the way. no matter hwo long it takes.
love you all
-jeffrey luckey
Eric-
Wow! your faith is AMAZING....what else can be said but this situation stinks and some how you are still able to give God the Glory and Honor that he deserves---I don't know many men who can do that!
In Mark 5 Jesus fell asleep in the mist of a huge storm & the disciples woke him and aksed if he even cared if they drown. Jesus got up and rebuked the winds and waves and said "Quiet! Be still!" and it was completly calm. Jesus questioned them and asked why they were afraid and had no faith, and the disciples were terrified and asked "Who is this man? Even the winds and waves obey him."
Eric you know who this man is and our prayer is that He can calm the storm inside of Kaitlyn...he has the power, we just pray it is in His plan to move quickly and restore Kaitlyn. Don't loose faith----you are amazing!
I love you guys.
Margie
Son, with progress, the cause & effect sometimes aren't known for long periods. From what I've read, the power we use to run our daily lives (electricity) has great benifits. It also has a critcle down side, Transformers and their by- products is the markers for Leukemia.
But God knew about Kaitlyn's (and yours) journey weeks before anyone else. So he started in motion some amazing things...You apply for a job by chance on the internet (along with thousands), you get this job to start the weekend after Kaitlyn got sick. Giving you the opportunity to devote those first 2 weeks by your wonderfull wife and be able to hold Kaitlyns hands, pray with Heather, support Maddie as much as could be possible. He had more than you even know directed or redirected so many others lives, I really think you would be surprized at how many people will say, "It was so uncanie how my boss gave me this..., or I'm on vacation and if you need anything..., or schools out so if you and Heather need help around the house..., or we would love to have Maddie spend the night to go to vacation-bible school with our children. While Kaitlyns and yours lifes were being turned upside down. Gods plan was to help carry your family, with the love, prays and Gods guidince from his floak. And not to meation the unbelieveable wonderfull news everyday about Kaitlyn's progress. His plan was set in place weeks before anyone knew. And I'm sure he already has more great things planned for next week and the next and the next ect...
It is so evident to everyone, that you and Heather, from the first moment have never let your trust in God be a question or a dought. So many others would have questioned, blamed, trusted in others during this time. But you & Heather, from your hearts have shown all of us what it really means to put it all in Gods hands, thats called FAITH!. God is honored and proud of your wittness (and so am I). God is more than good he is our ROCK and our place to give our tathered hearts to, and he will sooths them... I love you all Mom
hey guys,
God's really been putting the word "faith" on my heart lately, and i keep praying for you during this time of great strectching of your faith. Something I just read a few days ago in my devotional, really spoke to me, & i think it will to you, too. it said, " If you are enduring great afflictions right now, you are at the source of the strongest faith. God will teach you during these dark hours to have the most powerful bond to His throne you could ever know.
"Don't be afraid, just believe." (Mark 5:36). But if you ever are afraid, simply look up and say, "When I am afraid, I will trust in you" (Psalm 56:3) (from devotional "Streams in the Desert")
I thought that was great. a verse for when you are & aren't afraid, cuz we all go thru times of both, & you guys are experiencing this now more than ever. my heart just broke when i read your story, & i continue to pray for all of you.
love,
nicole kennedy
I found out about this from a thread in the POD forums posted by MikeG, and reading this blog brought tears to my eyes. I pray wholeheartedly for your daughter. I have been through the battle with cancer in my family twice, and I understand how awful it is.
God be near to you and hold you close.
-- Chelsea Hunter aka canadian_chick
I keep checking back... I hope all is okay.
Thinking and praying
amber
Hey, you don't know me, but I am on the southtown forums and MikeG posted something up there about your daughter. I want to let you know I am praying for her.
~Ida
p.s.
this is off the topic... but eric i like ur new ride :)
-jeffrey luckey
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